It's New Year's Eve and so I was going to write up and reflect on a very interesting year (animation careerwise). However, instead of looking back on the year as a whole, I find that the events of the past several months basically sums up all that was interesting for the entire year. 2007 can be summed up with just two words: Blue Sky.
OK, so to those who actually know me, you may be sick of hearing it. And since my time there ended a week ago, I should stop talking about it. It's like having a friend who just gave birth to her first child: you are happy for her but the baby is ALL she talks about and soon it drives you nuts! I know that getting a first film animation job is nothing compared to giving birth. And since I don't have kids, and I don't have a uterus, try to hear me out anyway.
I remember this post way back in December 2005, already two years ago:
So Close, Yet So Far. Here is what I wrote in the end:
On Christmas 2002 I thought, by this time next year, I would be knee deep in learning animation at the Academy of Art. Well that never happened. A year later, I was still rendering figures in charcoal.On Christmas 2003 I thought, by this time next year, I will be starting a job or an internship, because by then I would have really learned animation. Well that never happened.On Christmas 2004 I thought, by this time next year, there is no way I won't be working as an animator. I'm finishing up my classes at AAU and I'm getting all A's, which may indicate that I have a good chance at getting a job. It's Christmas 2005 now and I'm standing here filing away other people's Christmas cards.But even though I may sound like I'm feeling sorry for myself, I still don't regret anything. There is something that is very invigorating to the spirit when one actively pursues a creative passion. One will not stop. One will not accept reality. One will continue to keep learning without school, without teachers, without money. One becomes blind to reality. There is just nothing else. As long as I have sight, hands and health, this will be what I will always be pursuing.For now.Holy crap what a self-pitying whiny bastard I was! I feel that was the lowest point in my animation career/studies. I am shocked at how much hope I still had. Well, I really had no choice BUT to hope, since I gave up everything to pursue this animation thing. I truly believe that if you convince yourself that there is no other alternative, then you subconsciously bring out events and circumstances that support your goal. Like what Obi-Wan told Han Solo in
Star Wars, "In my experience, there is no such thing as luck." I think that's what he said.
So in June 2007 it finally happened. I was called in to start my very first film animation job. I was armed with the usual warnings: it's dog-eat-dog in those kind of studios, you are only good as your last shot, it's a crazy schedule, etc. But hey, it's one of my dream studios and the crazyiness is what I craved. I enjoy the pressure, the competition: bring it on.
And on the second day when I attended the first Dailies, I started to pee in my shorts.
I still remember our temp leader/mentor, Pete Paquette, telling us something like, "We are throwing you into the fire."
The shots I saw being done were mind boggling. The bid days seem extremely short. The work done by the temps who were here before seemed flawless. I really thought, a
m I really ready for this? Did they make a mistake? I know there are at least 2 other Jeff Kims working in animation: they must have called the wrong one.The rigs were the most complicated I've ever touched.The style of animation was so much more complicated and more fun that anything on my demo reel.I'm working with some of the best animators now. How can I keep up?Evolve or Die.And all of us evolved eventually, more quickly than we thought we could. There's nothing like working in a job you love, actually doing what you love. Adapting came naturally.
Working at Blue Sky made me realize 2 things: it solidyfied why I want to be in film, yet it made me realize that film isn't everything, as long as I'm doing my part in the story. Sounds contradicting?
At this time it is the medium of film that delivers the best packaged story that resonate to as many people as possible. And it is film that allows the animator the time to make his/her work the best possible. However, film is not the only storytelling medium: there's tv, games, even commercials. An animator's job is to make the character come to life within the context of the overall story: the puzzle piece that fits into the whole.
By this time next year, I hope I have the same attitude and feeling I have now. Careerwise, I'm so optimistic, more than I have ever been the past several years. I can only hope that 2008 will be as eventful, challenging and rewarding.